1.Whateva, Whateva I do what I want...this has inadvertently become the motto of my life
Addictions I've had in my life: Coke (a-cola), napping, Twilight series
I want to be in the Spinoff show of Boston Legal
(Except for my ex) Every guy i've really liked has ended up in a serious relationship with another girl
I can't for the life of me understand ( Read more... )

Over winter break i experienced a huge relief and euphoria when I made public my decision to pursue acting.  It was thrilling and exciting and freeing.  I was so happy to have decided concretely on a path for my future.  I thought that my new found happiness was due to finally see my dream future as an acceptable reality.  But when I returned to ( Read more... )

Desperation is
Unattractive.
Resignation is
Unproductive.
Wanting without Needing is
Unromantic and Unreal.
Wreckless Abandon is
the only honest way,
come what may.

I'm ready and eager to end this book of my life, but I'm burried so deep in the pages of the last chapter that I cannot see the ending- much less the segway to a new beginning.

continue...

Madeleine's world is coming together and falling apart. and none of it should matter as much as it does ( Read more... )

I don't have to think about it. Because I don't have a decision to make. I have an emotion to bury. And the sooner I start, the deeper it gets.
~my justification for not thinking about what never was nor ever will be.

so i just have to post this before i lose track/forget day listed is the night of whatever hours (i.e. 430-9 thursday july 17th is actualy 430am friday morning, after the night of the 17th ( Read more... )

so, i love him. that's pretty much it. !
most freaking amazing person ever.
and now the whole what does he think of me phase begins
goddamn crushes.

news feed: *a certain someone* is no longer listed as "in a relationship ( Read more... )

I just played the most absolutely ridiculously game of monopoly ever played. That is not a hyperbole. I bankrupted my mom and owned everything on the board except the green monopoly and railroads and utilities. I built hotels on half the board, and mulitple houses on everything else. 2 hours later I lost the game, my brother won. He had 10,861 ( Read more... )