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time
"time is not on your side". "time flies". "It is later than you think." I don't have the time. I don't make the time. I feel out of time. Why can't I just ignore time. It just "slips away" and there is no way to catch it. So much "wasted time" so much wasted energy trying to "turn back the clock." tick tock tick tock I hate that sound. I ( Read more... ) -
weddings
Bo got married today. The theme of the wedding was"They go together like peanut butter and jelly". How cute is that! -
ADD
Slightly frustrated with myself. Tried to tutor Micky. Of course completely unprepared and unorganized. Thought I was. Had a plan of attack. Did research. Trying to tutor an ADD kid without any concept of self discipline is like trying to eat spaghetti with a spoon. She gets frustrated. I get frustrated. She jumps from subject to subject. I ( Read more... ) -
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I haven't posted to lj in quite some time. I find it amusing all the changes that have occured. An actual writer's block starter tag on my front page in particular. It reminds me of all those free writing exersizes I had to do in school. Didn't like them then either. I guess I figured if you had something to write why resort to something like ( Read more... ) -
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I am sitting here at my desk trying not to cry. I have no idea what's wrong. Nothing catastrophic has happened. A few miss steps easily fixed, a muggy dreary morning with little to do. Am I crying because I'm bored. Is it just monday morning blues. Crying because I can't scream. So glad I didn't pack a lunch. It means I have to get out of ( Read more... ) -
security
It's past midnight and I would be asleep but I can't find a security envelope. That's all I want. Just to be able to send of these tax forms and not worry about them untill next year. But where, oh where are all those stupid security envelopes. AAAARRRGH! -
Ten years
Hiding again. In my room doing absolutely nothing of worth, nothing I actually want to do or need to do. Job posted today I need to get ready for. Website needs to be finished. Research, Study. Instead watching youtube, ordering food I don't want. Waiting for something to happen instead of makeing it happen. Watching it happen to others. E ( Read more... ) -
personal update
So much has happened since I last posted in this thing. So many bad things if I listed them but I won't because I almost never do that. Feeling pretty high on life and don't think I want to dwell in self pitty. I'm learning to take baby steps forward instead of giant ones backward. I still might glance behind sometimes but more and more to see ( Read more... ) -
Hmm
I've accomplished alot. I know that compared to many other minorities I've accomplished the seemingly impossible. Except I hate defining myself that way. . . not what I wanted to write. I hit a wall. I no longer know what to do. I no longer know what I want to do. Held on to something for so long and then let go of it. A goal I didn't have ( Read more... )