i had lived my life one way and i could just as well have lived it another. i had done this and i hadn't done that. i hadn't done this thing but i had done another. and so? it was as if i had waited all this time for this moment and for the first light of this dawn to be vindicated. nothing, nothing mattered, and i knew why. so did he. throughout ( Read more... )

"pity only what you cannot understand."

"suddenly i turned and looked at an old school picture from when i was ten. i seemed to detect something that had eluded me up to then. to my surprise, i must admit that i don't know who i am. i haven't the vaguest idea. i've always done as i was told as far as i can remember. i've been obedient, well-adjusted, almost meek. i did assert myself one ( Read more... )