Sunday ( Read more... )

What do you do when you are in possession of a time-bomb? Do you wait for it to go off? Do you set it off in some sort of humane honorable effort? Who the fuck cares? How can heartless terrorists persist in their ignorance making bombs and killing innocent hearts?

Today I realized that I am depressed. I am not in a depressed mood but in the state of depression. I am not looking for sympathy but I need to express myself because I have been holding it all in for about 4 months. It is very hard for me to get out of bed. Many times I just want to stop existing. There is not some issue that I keep going over ( Read more... )

I am getting drunk every night, or close to that; I don't know what I'll do when school starts and that isn't possible.

I am really miserable.

I hate and have disowned my father.

I am ready for the eminent change that is lurking sensible but unknown.

Things aren't as they should be.

Nothing can satisfy.

I can't do this anymore.

I am having an ontological crisis ( Read more... )

Was ist Idealismus ( Read more... )

This happened to me about a week before spring break.

It was really hot in my building and so when passing by the front desk I asked the worker about it.

Me: Do you know when the A/C gets turned back on?
Worker: Not before or after spring break ( Read more... )

Yesterday in my ethics class we were discussing the essence of a flourishing life. The teacher asked what we thought about it. Someone responded that he thought a flourishing life was whatever anyone wanted. He thought that if one liked one's life then it was a flourishing life. The class proceeded to talk about this and the teacher somehow ( Read more... )

The chief lament in my life is that I desire what I ought not desire. In my heart I truly want what is good for me, and yet there is something in me that is out to destroy me.

My life is turning upside-down. Even the good things are turning out badly. I am having to reconsider many things that have been foundational to me for a long time. I must put the test of fire on things that I treasure to see if they are real, and I run the risk of destroying them. I should be scared, even panicked. I am a little but not as ( Read more... )