Ahh atleast I still have somewhere I can come and write or type out the crap in my head without worries. Because who honestly still comes to LJ anymore? Anyway, somethings just sometimes seem to fucking good to be real or true and they probably are. So why does it feel like this is the same damn thing I've done time and time again? The love, the ( Read more... )

And it comes again. I didn't feel like writing anything up on facebook since tehre are many people I don't feel like letting know about any of this. The whole lonliness/depression thing is coming back to life. I may seem bitter and aggrivated by the fact that nearly everyone around me is finding some form of happiness for themselves, but I'm not. I ( Read more... )

Yeah, so its apparent that I should be doing no more listening to anyone at GW about my situation. So far the rumor mill has hit most of the other single guys in the store and just keeps avoiding me for some weird reason, even though I'm the only it'd be true about. I personally find that very amusing. I'm the one she's sleeping with, making out ( Read more... )

Wow, I think the was the first time I made out with a girl that wasn't already seeing someone else, well except vicky (but she's been the exception to every norm with me).

I just feel like fucking writing now, but not so that the people on myspace can actually see what I'm saying or feeling. Just don't feel like getting called emo again by dustin for vocalizing whats in my head and heart without actually being whiny, just bitter and angry. Though seriously, how am I supposed to be happy and feel good about life when ( Read more... )

I've done things in my life that I'm not completely proud of. I've had alot of heartbreak as well. Though, never before had I be my own cause of heartbreak and regretted it from the first second. The times before were done on the females part(lynne and nyx), but I never expected that one day I'd had to break my own heart to save the person I love. ( Read more... )

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Look, I don't know if your still checking my shit out like I take it you were recently. But don't be afraid of all those other people that still seem to think I'm a threat. I'm only a threat to myself. Yes Corey, I'm talking to you about that. I'm not trying to get into the middle of anything. It is entirely possible to just be friends as we all ( Read more... )

Not sure why I feel compelled to write something in here today, but I just do. Just been thinking about the situation with Ashley again. I just wonder about certain things. Not about things now, as I'm pretty solid on how everything is and don't think its anything more but sometimes less. Can't help think about the what ifs that one day may happen ( Read more... )

I wish I knew how much longer I can keep this going on. The whole situation is just breaking me down more each day. I love her and wish I could be with her, even just spending more time and not even in the relationship, but every second of every day I'm leary of him, jealous and HIGHLY distrustful. I don't believe a damn word of his I see or hear. ( Read more... )