merry christmas! you have diabetes!

life sucks besides aldridge being the best boyfriend ever. that's about it.

is it possible to be completely happy yet tortured all at the same time?

i miss you i miss you i really wanna kiss you but i can't.
andrew, three months is too long.
i love you<3

why does it have to be my favorite band that now makes me uncomfortable? like honestly... every song makes me upset. i hate it. goddamnit.

it all really finally set in this week. my heart hurts. i don't know what i can say that i haven't said before. i need to feel better. i shouldn't ever have to feel this way. you are officially an asshole andrew. i just want to smack you really hard and yell at you. baby, i'm sorry... i just want this to be some fucked up dream.

now i've been going to the cemetery as much as possible. it makes me feel better. almost like i'm going to visit you in a coma or something. i can talk to you. but you can't talk back. i usually go at night... lately i haven't been able to find anyone to go with me. mary says i'm not allowed to go by myself. i really want to go... because once it's ( Read more... )

so andrew's dead. my andrew. my baby. he killed himself two weeks ago. i am devastated. love you baby. miss you so much.

rest in peace.

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epic fail

=) i like andrew alot. haha. i hope he asks me out soon. i can't wait to go back to school. everything seems to be awesome. i spent four days with his family this week so it was pretty cool. i got to play poker with his brother and his friends. i met his best friend tony and he seems to like me. i don't know. i hope this doesn't get screwed up. i ( Read more... )

bitches blowwwww