i've figured this all out!i've come to the conclusion that all this is, is just me daydreaming. its as simple as that. it'll never ever ever come true. im not worthy of anything...

uhhhhhhh. hi.. so today..i went into art. and there was this dude that was from the college of...Montserrat college of art. and i saw Alex Belissimo in there. she came from another class to see it. and she had sat down at mine and christianes table cus christiane was there. and she said hi to me and stuff. i was so affraid that she hated me since ( Read more... )

i made my christmas list already o.< arrggghhh. all i want is..an Ipod Nano (cus those things are HAWT!) and like..30 cd's. i have way too much time on my hands. i cleaned the house..i did everyones chores (did the dishes on my own free will, fed the dog, took the trash out, and made dinner) and i even went through all my old shows saved on my ( Read more... )

"If there is someone on your friends list you would like to take, strip naked, tie them to a bed post, lick them until they scream, then fuck them until both of you are senseless and unable to fuck anymore, then wait about five minutes and do it all over again, then post this exact sentence in YOUR journal."

i was reminded of this thing today. so, i guess its appropriate to write something that isnt so ...angry (such as my last entry). uhh. i had 3 tests today, econ, algebra II, and Health. all easy, and i got a 108% on health. the one im most unsure about is econ, since its just a writing assignment, not certain questions ( Read more... )

fuck you mom, fuck you. grr she's been pissing me off so much lately. she gets so fucking sassy with me with all these smart ass remarks. like...god damnit, what'd i do to her? jesus christ. anyways... thats all i have to say about that ( Read more... )

well shit. i dont know. mom's getting panda express tonight for dinner. yay.

and dont laugh at me kids. but i just finished reading the new harry potter book. yeah shut the fuck up.<3 lol. so what if im nerdy?! psh. it was good. you cant deny it! anyways. it was good..but depressing. anyways. uhmmm thats all i have to say. later

i dont get this. ok i was mad when he wrote that stuff because i felt like he didnt trust me or want to tell me. so i was angry..left a bad message on his lj. and he comes back and starts this arguement about how im being childish and shit for starting arguements all the time. i wasnt even arguing with him at the time either! i was just talking and ( Read more... )

just got back from hanging out with kristin. we went to lunch at subway and then went to the mall. and i got this really pretty painting from this one art store thats moving so everything is 50% off. so this was only 6 bucks. its so perrrty. its a painting of a harbor or something and with a buncha little sailboats all over. so freaking pretty ( Read more... )

my whole day has been ruined..why did i even check that shit tonight? why did i even go on LJ to look? god damnit. i feel like i've been lied to ..AGAIN. i mean..friends can at least tell me these things. I thought he was better than that..that he had changed. i guess not. im so fucking pissed off..you guys have no idea. anyways..going to go beat ( Read more... )