and yet..i still love him.

god do i ever hate saying sorry. i mean.. if im angered and its not my fault, i dont want to say sorry. if i have no reason to say it, i shouldnt have to. but whenever im over an arguement, i feel obligated to say it. but i dread that moment. cus i always say "sorry i got carried away, you were right" etc. i hate that. but i mean.. in order for my ( Read more... )

man, im really sad. kevin (iffy) is all depressed today. i dont know what happened, but i can only think of the worst case scenario. either something to do with ali, or..er.. he's depressed about himself being not good enough or something. poor kid's got a really low self-esteem. or at least thats what he makes himself out to be. i wish i could ( Read more... )

stole this from bill <3 ( Read more... )

the weather has reflected my mood lately, contrary to popular belief. I've been fucking gloomy all week. been in totally bad moods all day, i just choose not to show them.you all should know that by now. im not gunna get into it. but yeah. tons of people were ignoring me or pissing me off, and now im fucking pissed at someone else. like... the ( Read more... )

i feel disgraceful. this country has no reason to be proud of itself. its just a long long line of murderers and liars who have become so awful that this country doesnt even look like land anymore. all of our plants have to be planted, and if you want actual land, you have to move out into the boonies, where everyone feels like their back in the ( Read more... )

why doesnt anyone notice anything? maybe i just hide it well. well i was really fucking depressed today. but no one noticed or said anything. god damnit..i feel like im just there. whatever, i dont give a shit anymore. why should i, if no one gives a shit about me? blah blah shut the fuck up.

good day

just watched Bowling For Columbine. very interesting movie. but i really liked his arguement on the matter of..well mostly everything he said. he interviewed Marylin Manson..and man that kid is intelligent. like..i've never really liked to listen to marylin manson, but he's got some good points in that movie. And i almost want to move to canada now ( Read more... )

god damn..i wish he were mine. <3 i've just figured out, all love is (to me at least) is an endless pain and need for a certain person. and only going out and such eases it. its like..an endless..i dont even know what the feeling is. but it'll only go away by being with him.

i have a 4.0 bitches! i brought my C- in econ up to a B+ yay! and i have all a's. and so since one of my A classes is AP, it counts as a grade higher, so its as if i have all A's. this is so saweeeet. i am very happy ( Read more... )