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Mirtazapine Horrors
Dear friend, if you have by some ill choice chosen to read this wretched journal, be warned against the machinations of the so-called health care profession. But to be specific (as they used to say of the primitive mind, and mine is nothing if not primitive, it is capable only of specificities: needless to say this is a fallacy, concerning the ( Read more... ) -
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An oddly comforting dream, until the very end at least. A shadowy friend and I were pilots in some futuristic war. We were invalided by psychic shocks, wounded as it were by our experiences. In our convalescence, during which the scene gradually shifted to the final days of WWII, we each drew independently, and unconsciously, pictures in which ( Read more... ) -
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Just killed an enormous wolf spider for the wife. Strangely lifted my spirits, a little. Would rather have left it, but such are the duties of a husband. -
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I have nothing to say but will write nevertheless. I was suffering migraines and muscle spasms before Don died. I haven't suffered much emotionally since he died but the muscle spasms have worsened tenfold. Today was the first day without muscle relaxant. I think I sleep poorly too, probably not reaching sleep deep enough for dreams for I've ( Read more... ) -
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[I wrote this the Sunday before March 4th of this year. It is difficult to believe I wrote this. I want to put it in here for some reason. Maybe you know why ( Read more... ) -
I Live, Don Is Dead
I am still alive after eight weeks of being away from livejournal. I've written nothing in these eight weeks, I have plumbed depths unrecorded in the annals of ten thousand civilizations, I have lost a thousand psychic wars. I want (or want to want) to cry out to God and my consciousness is choked with a density of deep Jovian atmosphere, where ( Read more... ) -
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Ĉi-matene mi ekvekiĝis plejparte sendeprima. Amen, mi diras, dankojn al Dio pro ĉi tio. Juĝante pri la estinteco, mi opinias tion, ke tiu pli bona stato de mensa-aferoj apenaŭ daŭros longe, sed dum ĝi daŭros mi ŝatos ĝin. Efektive, iu ajn trankvileco estas dankindaĵo de Dio al mi. -
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English, this time... I'm having unpleasant thoughts about Esperanto. The participial system is wonderful, as are the correlatives. But there is a terrible flaw in the language, an elephant in the room, that no one but anti-Esperantists seem to acknowledge. It's the fact that in order to have "plena posedo" (full possession) of the language you ( Read more... ) -
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Esperanto jam tedas min. Mi havas tre multajn -- tro multajn -- interesojn kaj tial iu ajn de ili baldaŭ tedas min. Poste mi revenos al la unua intereso aŭ hobio, tiam al la dua, kaj tiel plu. La tuta afero tediĝas. Hodiaŭ mi legis multe da la latina kaj neniom da Esperanto. Estas bedaŭrinde ĉar mi ĵus ricevis "Sagao de Njal" kaj se ĝi sidas ( Read more... )