Well, I haven't posted since December. And there's no good reason for that -- maybe I should have, because that way I could have kept better track of my process of self-discovery.

It would be a lie to state that the conclusions are more important than the data collection, but I'll just go ahead and provide the conclusions. Here they are:

1. I have no ( Read more... )

I've pretty much spent my entire high school career killing myself in order to achieve a dream that I don't think I have anymore.

I can't wait for the semester to end. I can't wait to have all the time in the world to study math. I've already set aside all of the books I want to read after finals week, and it's definitely too optimistic ( Read more... )

I was reading a book on special relativity one day in freshman English, and an education professor from Northern came up to me, saw what I was reading, and saw how much I loved it. He told me to never let anyone take that away from me. And I'm so afraid that I am.

( Read more... )

I know what I want to do, and I'm not allowed to do it ( Read more... )

I am ridiculously upset right now, and I have been for a long time. I'm dead exhausted and am still being pushed to get everything done, and it's not my fault. I wish I could blame myself, because then I could change things. But I can't. It's not my fault, and it wasn't my choice.

I'm a full time college student in all 200-level classes, and 300- ( Read more... )

I spent a long-ass time trying to teach myself how to whistle when I was about 8 or 9 years old, and after a good part of a decade of practice, I think I've finally quite mastered the art ( Read more... )

"The most important thing to remember is this: To be ready at any moment to give up what you are for what you might become."

Rock on, W.E.B. DuBois.

You know what it's like when you're running at top speed and you have so much momentum that it seems impossible to slow down? That's what my life feels like. No one is keeping me going but myself. It's probably a good idea to slow down -- I might have (yet another) complete mental breakdown -- but for some reason I don't really want to. The wind in ( Read more... )