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Farewell Letter
My dearest Livejournal,
I want you to know that I have loved you all along; even after I got facebook, I checked you regularly and declared that you were still the one for me. I stood up for you when no one else would, but now I think the battle is over. You've died and I need to move on. I hope you understand that I never stopped loving you, it's ( Read more... ) -
Overcoming the Mud
For the last few months I've been harboring this anger that I simply refused to face. I put it all on Andrea; it was like my life got complicated when she moved out, she bailed on me, she messed me up. The truth is, I have no idea what messed me up, but it certainly wasn't her. Tonight, we finally talked about it. It wasn't me making jabs ( Read more... ) -
Unmedicated Medicine
Hello 2010! Ok, so it's been 2010 for nearly a month but this is the first post of the new year for me. It still doesn't feel quite right writing '10 on the date, I still write the zero first and have to squeeze in the one in front of it. But, who am I kidding, I still write '07 way to often.I remember on my 19th birthday some one told me ( Read more... ) -
Healing is not Weakness
This morning i woke up. I do that. But this morning I woke feeling sorry for myself. I suppose it really started last night, I got into bed because I was feeling sick and in pain and thought I should just give up and go to bed. And then I sat in bed and texted Nathan for a whlie and just felt like shit. Crying because I was scared. Crying ( Read more... ) -
"Gettin' Slizziced"
I got sliced today, don't worry it was planned. Surgery went well. I got to the hospital a bit before 10 am and did all the paperwork, vitals and got a massive IV stuck in my arm that hurt like hell because the nurse wasn't so great with needles. I sat in the pre-op room with my mom and took a pregnancy test and peed 6 times because they ( Read more... ) -
Lazy Days and Heartfelt "Yays"
I need a job. Badly. Money would be the main issue here. But more than anything, I need something to do during the day, I need somewhere to go and feel like I'm getting something done. Don't get me wrong after a tough summer it's been nice to just hang out, but I liked hanging out at my parents because while I wasn't working I had things to do ( Read more... ) -
Finding Positivity, sometimes like finding Narnia...
I'm having a rough day today, I've worried a lot and I'm emotionally spent and physically not doing great either. This morning I went to my surgical consult and was told that my gallbladder needs to be removed, it's the only real option. The procedure was explained in 2.4 seconds with the surgeon and I signed a bunch of "you might ( Read more... ) -
Nine
Today I am 21. I could not drink alcohol. I could not have much fat. And yet it was amazing. I spent the morning sleeping and chilling and selling my books on amazon, the afternoon talking on the phone with my mom and then Boo for several hours. In the late afternoon my roommates blindfolded me and took me to get frozen yogurt and buy a rat (Swarly ( Read more... ) -
Feeling like a grown up
This summer has been a study in how life tests you. I had an amazing spring in London that changed my life and I would never give up; it further proves my theory that money should never mean you can't do important things. I was all set to go to camp right after and then on to the roadtrip and the only thing that made the end of London ok was that I ( Read more... ) -
"I hope your mustache falls off and haunts your children" - road rage
Camp started
Camp ended
it was moderately fun
love the kids
love some of the staff
not so much with administration
roadtrip started
roadtrip was ok
roadtrip got worse
roadtrip needs to be over
be back in washington on friday
creston on sunday
i'm reading the last harry potter
so good
read 6 this summer
yay