fuck me.what a fecking shitty week it has been. yet now the future weeks should be so much better than weeks before and it makes me a happy girl.although a few other good things have come out of the last few days too...like that when you lose the one thing you need you realise how many more things you have to fall back on to get you through that ( Read more... )

mornin,
right, im trying to sort out all this going-to-uni business and its hard! i wish i had some idea of what i wanted to do coz there are about 20 courses in about 3 or 4 unis that sound like the shit.i havent even seen the UCAS form, or asked anyone about any form of reference, or looked at accomodation, or got any idea how to do a personal ( Read more... )

right...well im feelin a lil unsure at the minute, because there is nothing for me to think about, nothing playing on my mind, and nothing making me mad. so i really dont know what to do with myself! and therefore, i've been buying clothes. whoops! got a pretty good week ahead tho - only three shifts to do at the pub, then for the rest of the time ( Read more... )

i thought we'd sorted our relationship out. but either i'm wrong in the way im treatin him or he's wrong in the way he's treatin me. coz i'm still miserable.and i know its my fault to million percentages of an extent. i know i am the one that always fucks things up. but i miss him holding me. and him wanting to do so.as a wise man once said "what ( Read more... )

i know ive not updated since christmas but thats coz not much has gone on. however, last night was not only the babyshambles gig, it was the luckiest ever night of my entire life, ever. EVER. in the pub before the gig, i found £2 in the itbox and won a quid with one of the 50ps. then got to the gig and managed to get me a super strong single vodka ( Read more... )

well, the christmas day of panic is over. and in the fearon household we all seemed to escape scathe free!! no serious arguments (bickering at most), and we all thought really hard about what we got each other - everyone seems enough happy! woowoo!! even managed to escape for a couple of hours to venture to the only pub open (this tiny one that can ( Read more... )

( guess this works better with more than two friends, but even so... )

oh look, i got back from work about nine hours ago and off i go again. i love my job and everything but give me a fucking break!!

oh my god. i have never needed something like this to vent at more in my life. i am currently the most pissed-off-with-the-world person ever to have existed i reckon.not only am i faced with the complete destruction of a relationship in some ways i could only have ever dreamed of for myself(in other ways it is the stuff of nightmares, lets face it ( Read more... )

i feel like shit. is this normal?? i dont feel ill, or tired, or particularly depressed, but i swear to god, i could give the wrong end of a pineapple a run for its money today. its nearly christmas and everything!!! what the fuck is wrong with me?! answers on a postcard to the usual address please.

B xXx