this last week would be it. last tuesday my dog ran away. on thursday i was fired. and then the following tuesday peter's dad died. so yeah...i would list the things that i have going for me that make me happy, but i'm too afraid that will jinx them. anyway, school starts back up next week, and then i have 2 months until summer break. hopefully i ( Read more... )

when are you coming, spring break? when? we had state testing at school this week, so i got nothing done. except for i read an entire novel. i did get that done. and i scrubbed the hell out of my kitchen. today peter and i went and played golf, like real golf, not mini golf. that was fun. peter's dad has been in the hospital for a while now. not ( Read more... )

so today was ok. yesterday was horrible at the school. the students were impossible to control, and they sounded so bad. like they had just picked up the music for the first time. bleh. we had a long talk about behavior and the fact the behavior is the reason they sound so bad. and we talked about giving more effort and not being so damn apathetic ( Read more... )

i jogged for 15 minutes. this may not mean anything to any of you, but to me this means so much. with my asthma, i have not ran in 10 years. and to jog for that long and to survive is awesome for me. i also went up 5 pounds on each machine and survived. although i had to quit after my squats and back extensions because my eyes were blacking in and ( Read more... )

what?! as i work harder and eat better, this is my result. slowly coming to like what stares back at me that for years i've despised. i'm also starting to become more productive, more focused, and less angry. ...anger... what do you do when you've been angry your whole life...and then suddenly you realize that you're not anymore? and that you haven ( Read more... )

so last tuesday i went to the doctor to talk about anti-depressants. this is a problem i have struggled with for about 10 years and have never done anything about. she puts me on a prescription. i take it for two days, during which i don't sleep or eat. then i start having tremors, muscle stiffness, and severe anxiety. we cut back on the dosage and ( Read more... )

it's 8:30 on a saturday morning, what am i doing up? i had some pretty awful dreams last night. some of which i can't help but think they mean something more than images conjured up by my sub-conscious to occupy my mind while my body rests. i hate waking up crying ( Read more... )

i feel assured in saying that i'm pretty much the worst teacher ever. yep. on another note, all this shit has left me two sizes smaller in jeans and dresses. the numbers aren't coming off the scale, but i'm thinner. how does this work?

so we moved into the new house on saturday. we had a house built in north bossier over the summer and now we are living in it! it is just awesome. it's kind of weird though, i feel like i'm playing house in someone else's home. strange. anyway, i've been working at the school the last few weeks, and it sucks. actually, the only thing that sucks is ( Read more... )

yesterday i got back from my cruise to mexico. very fun! we went to see the mayan ruins in costa maya and went snorkeling in cozumel. the boat was a lot of fun, however, i was ready to go home by the last day. i'm glad we did a 5-day instead of a 7. i might have gone crazy. so, although i had a blast, i am glad to be home ( Read more... )