Problems....

[queliana]

Well, I first of all have to say that I got to talk to Swapnil for two minutes last night and it was sooooooo completely nice. I needed to talk to him so bad. Then he called me back this morning but I wa with Ausencio so obviously i couldn't talk long with him and told him i would buy a new phone card and try to call him back

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you knew i was going to read this...

[lunachava]

Well you knew that I was going to read this. Q you know that I love you and I am sure that when you read my LJ you won't be any happier. I belong here still whether I want to or not...I am not taking a step if God isn't leading me and I was so willing to jump off a ledge and do my own thing by going back to Omaha NOW. I can't....I am so very sorry about how you feel right now. You know it is all lies. You are worth so much and you never give yourself credit where credit is due. If you think you need help then get that help...I can't make you and your family can't make you and Ausencio can't make you. That is something you have to self-motivate yourself to do. I love you that won't change...you may have tested the limits :) but you know it won't change. I see that sadness in you too though. I am getting better with the whole Eric thing...and listen to me when I tell you DO NOT SCREW WITH ME ABOUT KILLING YOURSELF. THAT ISN'T SOMETHING YOU EVEN SAY IN PASSING. I love you and if you can't think of a reason to live if he leaves you or