Life can actually be elegant sometimes. Particularly on days when all things that can go wrong do and yet the result is somehow exponentially better than it would have been otherwise ( Read more... )

This is my first time visiting the snow, and it's terribly romantic to me. Probably wouldn't be after all the freezing weather and shovelling came on scene, but for now I must say I love New England. The people especially. We had this goon of a cab driver earlier and I kept ducking my head down so he wouldn't see the silent laughter of absolute ( Read more... )

I don't like who I am around my mom. I'm so senstive and defensive and kind of bitchy, which is the exact opposite (I hope) of how I am around my other friends. I feel totally alienated too, like no one can understand this dynamic so why try to explain it? I have a real issue with vulnerability, I've noticed, even when I'm by myself. I had an ( Read more... )

I got a really good kiss last night. That is all ( Read more... )

There are pretty much no words to describe how desperately unhappy I am right now. And how ecstatically elated I felt last night in improv. The sudden mood shift is wholly circumstanitally initiated, but god. I'm just so miserable at this moment. I don't know what to do. I wish I was one of those intuitively wise people who bust out perfect ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm running from myself. Every time I sit down to be still, I feel my whole mind and body buzzing. It's like there's something that I should be listening to, some overbearing voice that's trying to get my attention, but it's too overwhelming to hear. I get this way around my mom. I feel sad without any circumstantial basis for it, ( Read more... )

It's occurred to me recently that despite various circumstantial sources of discomfort, I'm really delighted by the people who constantly surround me and the kind of friendships we share. I've always had the idea that no one could have a true sense of who I am, and while that's partly true because I have difficulty opening up, I'm constantly ( Read more... )

And just like that, I feel ten times better. I should really do this "calling friends to make yourself feel better" thing more often, I swear to god it works! Seth and Chris made me happy when I didn't think it was possible to have a good day. How awesome is that? People never cease to amaze, and that is why I love them.

Why do guys suck sometimes? No offense to the ones reading this, because you know you're wonderful and how much I love you all, but ugh. I knew it wasn't going to work out, that we were horribly incompatible in every way, but it was so damn nice to have someone to call up and be with. He wasn't sleazy, didn't try to grope me or go too far, and ( Read more... )

Things that suck ( Read more... )