just wasting time

[quickyjenny69]

ive been thinking alot lately. everything is changing, including me. the more things change or progress, i tighten my grasp to the way they are now. my habits, my friendships, everything is just so different. since graduation, ive felt like nothing would be the same, so i held on so tight, i suffocated things. i found in order to preserve things, i

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[imfromgeorgia]

This post gave me chills, literally. I think that is because I felt the same way about you when I moved. I suppose I've had change once too many in my life. When you leave and come back, things look the same on the outside. The shutters always need painting, the family is all eating at the same dinner table, the friends still look similar. But deep inside all of those things they've changed. The shutters need more paint than they used to. The family has gone through rougher times, almost split, or even gotten closer. The friends are still the same people on the outside, but eventually they drift. (though there are exceptions) But you will change too. You will grow more, continue to make mistakes, but you learn too. You learn that life isnt about what's changed. It's about what always remains the same. There are people who will always love you no matter how many mistakes you make. There are people who you have in your life when you need them more than anything, but they kind of disappear when it's time. Things will be okay though.

[quickyjenny69]

no, i like your long comments. they help my post make sense. i guess im just scared and dont want to face things. whenever someone brings up college i change the subject. i dont know if im ready to grow up. ive always lived for today. i cant remember ever really wprrying about something a month away. i guess thats just a sign of being young and when u get old u have to worry. its a part of being an adult.
hopefully one thing that wont change is the fact that we are friends. no matter how far awy we are and how busy we get...
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