This is pretty damn long. Broken into two parts for LJ's length limits. See the notes at the end of part 2 for at least an attempt to talk about the gender issues and intent behind this?
I wrote a fic a couple weeks ago where Steve got the girl, the apartment, and all of the cool friends. He made out OK! Nothing was awful! Nobody got smacked around! Nobody was raped! And this is my soul's opposite reaction. Though nobody dies in this one either.
Just got back. Suspect I may never sleep again. How did I end up with Hulk feelings. How did I end up with Hawkeye feelings. How did I end up with Loki feelings. How did I ship people actually working together and being good at it. What is wrong with me.
* Bucky comes back from the Hydra isolation chamber with serious goddamn damage. In fact, Hydra's work on him is the base that the Red Room uses in Winter Soldier-rizing him.