amanda and i were best friends when i was a sophomore and she was a junior in high school in japan. long hair, blue eyes, southern accent, we met in babysitting class and i distinctly remember her being reprimanded for striking a "child"'s wrist in a role playing scene. i even remember word-for-word what i wrote about her that day in my journal (it ( Read more... )

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today i told donny how badly i wanted him ( Read more... )

on the bus coming home from work i saw a beautiful girl being spoken to by a creepy guy. he would not stop talking at her and she was just politely responding and turning away. my fellow commuters noticed it too and we built a kind of unspoken comradery with faces that said, "can you believe that guy?" it was getting ridiculous. he would not leave ( Read more... )

i went to the most amazing show ever. awesome opening for sean nelson singing harry nilsson songs backed by an orchestra at town hall. orgasmic ( Read more... )

a number of key events have occurred, the most important of which being a change of mind. i have made the conscious choice to let go of my identity. not to say, lose individuality, but simply to stop fearing a loss of self. my chemical addiction to specific peptides, that is to say, my long-term relationship with depression, had become my identity ( Read more... )

my landlord is hot. but not too professional or seemingly competent. he's recently taken over the family business after being laid off from a software company.

i arrived for our 11:30 appointment and he bungled for a good twenty minutes, mumbling under his breath, "uh, do you sign...this?...what...what is this?..." before finally, "okay, here we ( Read more... )

i feel depressed. not like, "oh, rough day..." but the kind of depressed where for the past year you've isolated yourself from nearly everyone you know. (i only answer one person's calls consistently.) where you spend your life in bed so you don't have to face the world. constant exhaustion and no motivation. i let time dissolve while i waste it ( Read more... )

today i found a new place to live. my own place. it's spacious and clean, with my own kitchen, living room, bathroom, and bedroom and not for a bad price at all. i'm so pleased ( Read more... )

"...protective attire for the 'space traveler' and, at the same time, the bonds of death. They may be called the bonds of Seth, because Seth was the god of death, who brought death into the world by murdering Osir ( Read more... )