i cried myself to sleep last night ( Read more... )

hmmm...i still feel depressed. although it is very sparatic. it just pops up out of the midst. it usually strikes at night...(like it's a tornado or something). i think that i'm super insecure and in need of some reasurrance. so if you see me, be careful with what you say. things right now have really been getting to me. even the littlest ( Read more... )

i wish that i could thoroughly explain my recent depression, but i can't. just that i'm sad. i can actually feel the frown on my face. like there is a magnet pulling my smile down ( Read more... )

i went to lunch with my mom today. i miss her so much. it's the little things that i miss, like the hugs and special talks and her yummy salads. i even miss the things i used to dislike! :) we had a good conversation today about everything: work, school, family, elise and jeff, devin, my dad, bill, and life in general. she is probably the ( Read more... )

it's been awhile, hasn't it ( Read more... )

devin and i worked things out and i feel so much better. we both pointed out the things we are going to work on to better things between us, he is going to be more sensitive, and i am going to stop guilt tripping him. i'm glad things are better ( Read more... )

sleeping and dreaming of things so real.
waking up and feeling i'm dreaming.

i'm sick, again.

crying, sick, tired, hurt, unresolved.

sleeping and dreaming of things so real.
waking up and feeling i'm dreaming.

i'm sick, again.

crying, sick, tired, hurt, unresolved.

i can't remeber the last time i cried as hard as i did today...actually i can, but thats besides the point. i just got so upset today about everything. it's like every little detail in my life upsets me. i was just a huge bomb and i exploded today. it was somewhat theraputic though, because i feel a lot better right now ( Read more... )

i find myslef expecting too much. i guess thats what comes out of being with someone when there really isn't commitment ( Read more... )