so yeah schools back.....bummer i hate it already i feel so alone and aliented but i do it to myself i guess. i used to be terrified to be alone but im so used to it now. its almost comforting...almost being a key word here...no one bothers with me so i choose not to bother with them back...my emotions are an ongoing battle between what i should ( Read more... )

i wish i was a hamster and i lived in a little cage

that way my life would be controlled by someone other then me

i would have no free will and no way to interact with anyone

i could run on my little wheel, eat, and sleep all day

sounds like a wonderful life

what the hell happned to me? ive turned into that kid that all your parents warn you about. the one who is a "bad influence". you know the one who always tried to convince you to steal some kids toy or burn ants with a magnifine glass. i didnt even see it happening to me. ive gotten pretty good at being destructive if i do say so myself. its ( Read more... )

Can you see me ( Read more... )

i feel so drained

emotionally, mentally physically

i cant sleep or eat or even pretend to be normal anymore

and its all your fault

i always have to screw something up

i must say that was a very good cover up.....you refuse to let yourself feel the good bc you would rather not be disappointed when that good feeling goes away later and it leaves you resenting love even more then when you got into the whole mess ( Read more... )

its a rainy day and i love it

im falling faster then ever before and i cant stop

and my friends are wonderful people

im hoping to create some trouble today like i always do haha jk

that is all

1) Use band names spell your name ( Read more... )

how the fuck did i end up where i started and i dont want to play this game over again ( Read more... )