i realize now that your eyes told me a million lies. im not even sure when the last time we really kissed was or if we ever really did. i think when you realized that i wasnt going to be able to conform to your perfect little girlfriend mold you gave up. trust me i tried but it wasnt who i was. i was never what you wanted. nothing i did would ever ( Read more... )

i can hear the desperation in my voice. im pleaing for your mercy. you tricked me into trusting you. comforting words and your confidence in love made me believe it all. please dont make me cry anymore i dont think i can handle this heartbreak. i hope that your feelings havent faded as mine have grown stronger. but that is what i suspect. i ( Read more... )

ive realized that ive hurt you more then i intended too ( Read more... )

everything should be perfectly fine
but somethings missing
somethings gone
what is it and where did it go?

empty

yet again i let you get the best of me. i feel stupid for believing your half-assed promises and believing things would be different this time around. i think it hurts the most to know that you will always love your drugs more then me. how can you get so fucked up for 5 days in a row to even call in let me know your ok? i was beginning to ( Read more... )

i feel like a zombie just walking through the motions of life. my good moods dont last for more than an hour before something takes them away. it is like a dark cloud is hovering over me refusing to let any light in for more then a moment. im pushing people further and further away and im sorry. i dont mean it. i just want to be back to the way ( Read more... )

i remember how terrified we were of each other. i broke down your barriers knowing that i could but i never expected you to break down mine. ive always been better at games then everyone so i never really got hurt bc if you dont let people get close that cant happen. but i met my match. we can tear each other apart and rip out each others ( Read more... )

i promised myself that i would keep my cheeks dry of the tears that flow for you but it seems that i have broken another promise. i can taste the salty tears streaming down my face while i wonder why all of this pain , emotion and utter confusion is just now beoming apparent to me. i have a few theories but none of them seem signifigant enough to ( Read more... )

its amazing what your name on my caller id can do. but why do you keep calling? do you actually miss me? do you want to actually want to be with me this time? maybe its your soberness calling and your asshole ways are not fully intact but im confused. i have a better handle on things when i can just ignore the fact you havent called this week ( Read more... )

the skies keep getting darker and the rain wont stop pouring. haha my strongest link to sanity has now faded into the toubled pattern of high school relationships leaving me behind but if that makes her happy i couldnt ask for more. each day it gets easier to cope but harder to ignore the fact that youre not here to save me from myself. i think ( Read more... )