One more thing, I am going to be posting all new entries as friends only. Just thought you would like the head's up.

I know in my last enry, I was talking about how I was going to leave school. In informing the faculty, I had some very uncomfortable moments, and we came up with a game plan for me to stay. We decided that there is only a month left, and then I can leave and forget about this place for a little while. I talked to the professors and I am probably ( Read more... )

I have an announcement ( Read more... )

My alarm didn't go off so I missed all my classes today. Life sucks. I hate being alive anymore. I wish that someone could just shoot me. I did okay on my Brass methods test, but in practicing for it I haven't practiced for my lesson. I am pretty sure that Liz broke my toe today, my period is here so I feel sick as a dog (literally, I lost my ( Read more... )

So I need to shoot myself, or turn back the clock and start all over. I just don't want to be here anymore. I feel like I can't handle it and that I am all behind and unhappy. I wish that things were different, but they aren't ( Read more... )

I am dropping piano, and dropping out of life.

I am not going to make it. I would like to say that I am, but I am not. I just can't do it. How did I do all of this last year. With work, practicing, DO, and school I have no time to eat or sleep. I feel like I am just free falling right now, and I can't seem to hit the bottom to climb back out yet. It is coming, though, I know it is. I ( Read more... )

I would like to quit, and run away dancing in various kitchens around the country. Things are just so stressful right now, and so busy. I don't know if it is all worth it. I think sometimes that the only reason I keep plugging, is not because it is something I want, but because it is what I am expected to do. I've always done what was expected ( Read more... )

So this week has been almost okay. I got two jobs, played football in the rain, got to see a kick ass concert, and played the most awesome game of peanuts ever. The only thing that has kept this week from being really fantastic is the Khoe thing. Even when things are good, he is still in the back of my head. Just when I start having a really ( Read more... )

I can't believe everything that has happened these past few weeks. Out of all the good there is always some bad. Well, this time is it really bad. News Channel 7 had a less than interesting twist, but it told me what we already knew was true. I am so worried about him it isn't even funny. I can't believe that those stupid girls would do that ( Read more... )