I didn't realize I could blush this much.
I just got a facebook friend request from a dude who thinks I groped him at a basketball game when we were 17 - but really it was my evil genius of a so-called BFF who pinched his butt and then stepped away from me gazing innocently into the distance. Only I saw the smirk! I may or may not have had a small ( Read more... )

I need to keep my mind off the menstrual cramps and the TeeVee won't let me forget that it's Valentine's Day (I have no proof that the knowledge is exacerbating the pain, none at all). I'm chronically single and not the biggest fan of the holiday but even I have to admit there have been some good ones ( Read more... )

Today I did the last load of laundry that still held the scents of my last visit to Spain. I could still smell my BFF and her luminous baby girl (and their laundry detergent and possibly their cats but not much cigarette smoke). I miss them already but I'm trying to focus on the memories instead of the nostalgia. I planned to frolic in the fresh ( Read more... )

I just spent n * days in an apartment with no heat in December in New England without even noticing the heat was out. To be fair, I admit I spend most of my time in the parts of the house that I share with the family, but I have been sleeping here. I had noticed the cold but was so effectively distracted by guilt over not having finished insulating ( Read more... )

I've never understood the allure of mind-altering substances. I can dimly acknowledge that the analgesic effects are desirable and maybe too a bit of distraction, a shift in focus, a little loosening or just a change in scenery, but I can't be bothered to want those things from here. I'm too busy sifting through my perceptions, trying to figure out ( Read more... )

Hadn't been here in so long that my browser no longer remembers this page. Living the unexamined life ( Read more... )

( It's too late, tonight, to drag the past out, into the light )

I just watched my Invincibly Cool Niece head out to her 8th grade graduation. She is wearing a white tux with a turquoise bow-tie to match the turquoise chunks in the ends of her hair. Oh, and white converse. She rocks!

She goes to a school that caters to homogeneity in ways that set my teeth on edge*. She knows she'll stand out and some people ( Read more... )

I just stopped flinching every time I have to write 2010. And yet here June is with her pretty flowers, sunny days, lovely thunder storms and bountiful drainage tubes sticking out of my belly ( Read more... )

Today I got the fabulous news that my Abdominal Tumor of Unusual Size (a-T.O.U.S) is benign. While a large fraction of my looming nameless angst melted away, the anxiety over the surgery and dealing with my parents snuck right into its place. This is what relief feels like in my brain, it's dropping from a generalized state of stress that was ( Read more... )