Sometimes in my darkest moments I feel more like myself than any other moment in time.

What does that indicate?

You...you say that I hurt you and I wonder how that is plausable when I have gone out of my way to try to make everything I say or do please your ears and your eyes. Nothing is never good enough for you and no one will ever be want you say you need them to be ( Read more... )

My dad totally spoiled my Mom for her birthday. Sweet? No. It is not sweet at all how can one gesture on one specific birthday excuse months of neglect? You can not buy love. Apparently you can buy forgiveness ( Read more... )

Last night I attempted to make chocolate chip oatmeal cookies. Instead of 3/4 tsp of baking soda I put in 3/4 cup in...and it tasted awful...very very salty. I was in tears...because sometimes it seems everything I try to do ends up a disaster, Jon ate one anyhow and for the sake of my well being said they were "tasty"...I laughed so hard I almost ( Read more... )

You should'nt stick with me
You trust me too much, you see
Take all the pain
It's yours anyway

Oh, put the blame on me
You ought to pass, you see
Somewhere outside
I threw love aside
And now it's a tragedy. Lyrics by Jagger/Richards

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Time cast a spell on you...but you won't forget me ( Read more... )

I think I live in the past way too much. It's logical that you learn from your past, this I know. I've learn't but still I have yet to learn how to let go of it. I linger in the past like somehow what has been finished with is somehow going to change the way I wanted it too...or I relive moments and in my mind think of all the various outcomes that ( Read more... )

Written June 10, 2005. Found August 17, 2005

Feelings for you are way too strong that I can barely hold myself down. They are kept balled up inside and know one knows except but I. You are only thought of now in my dreams becauase you can't be a part of my reality.

I feel a kicking in my stomach; my soul trying as hard as it can to somehow reach ( Read more... )

Well we booked the moving van for the 30-31 of July. I guess it is getting to be offical moving time. Woohoo ( Read more... )

I am totally addicted to Rod Stewart's "Maggie May" today...it won't get out of my head ( Read more... )

I feel so disorganized when it comes to moving out. I only have one box packed and it's only a couple weeks away. I have ideas on my paint selection for each room but not 100% sure on any of it. Jon and I have pretty individual taste on things. He is more modern and I am much more country than I originally thought. I think the way we have things ( Read more... )