Despite the title of this post, I was looking at your facebook profile and saw you were engaged.  and all I want to say is congratulations.  Makes me wonder why I even wrote this, but I'm glad you found happiness.

For a while, I've felt... maybe not on top of the world.  But not in the shithole that I perceive myself to be in ( Read more... )

I don't know what it is.  These days, I just feel tired.  Like, I don't know what it is.  I guess it's just the loneliness and the monotony of life.  Not that there's anything with something that has a pattern.  I have a good job, a stable means of income.  But, I spend less and less time with friends, family, and just people in general.  This is ( Read more... )

It's tricky sometimes to consider who are good friends, and who aren't.  I feel that I belong in the latter category.  Thinking back, I don't think I was ever a good friend.  But now I'm convinced that I'm a terrible person.  Not in the meglomaniac genocidal sort of way.  Or even one who commits atrocities against his fellow men.  No, but the kind ( Read more... )

Some people are just horrible people.

I talked to a friend of mine earlier today, well, wait ( Read more... )

I know you don't read this anymore.  But sometimes, I feel afraid to peek into your life, and that's stupid.  Through all the pictures you post, shuffled among memes, and other things, I can see that you have happiness.  And a part of me is genuinely happy for you.  But then, I compare where you are with your life, versus where I am in mine, and it ( Read more... )

Maybe I am a bad friend and a bad person.

I still feel like I am missing out in the important things in my life.  I know you don't read this, and really the you who doesn't read this is a much different you that I remember, and that's no bad thing.  It makes me wonder if the me that writes this, is the me that you remember, and the answer no matter how it's answered will probably bother me ( Read more... )

I do feel like I'm getting my life back together again, but having said that, I feel like I'm allowing all my friends fall away to the wayside.  Yeah, I've got facebook, and all that.  But I don't even remember the last time I've seen my friends.  Maybe you were right when you said that we don't talk anymore, and maybe I wouldn't miss you if you ( Read more... )