I feel like this is the only place that I can confidently express myself. My thoughts have been regularly discombobulated. I can't think clearly or straight and don't know how to center myself. It's like this, while I'm smoking weed. For the most part, I can think up coherant thoughts, but I can't express them through actual words. Maybe I am, but ( Read more... )

I looked back on this. And I remember that dark place ( Read more... )

When you look back on this, Shelby
remember. When you cut, it wasn't because you hurt.
It wasn't because it took the pain away or because it helped at all.

You liked mutilating yourself. You enjoyed the pain.
Isn't that the epitome of you? You like this.

You really, truthfully do.

She is a prisoner in her own room
talks in third person sometimes to let the demons speak.

I'm going to Dickinson on Sunday or Monday.
I'll be staying there for about three weeks.

All family is the same.
Can I predict disaster?

Let me count the ways I love thee

ONE

TWO

THREE

FOUR

FIVE

SIX.

White roses on my fucking doorstep.

Who are you.

WHO ARE YOU?

You know that warm, heavy feeling?

The one you get in your eyes after being ravished by insomnia?

I have it.

The night makes me feel more alive than the day EVER could.
I feel slightly more attractive at night, too. And nearly weightless.

I finally got some sleep today, around four in the morning. I slept till eleven.
Now I cant sleep again, and I probably wont.

Kyou is crouched beside me on the bed, eyes closed.
I talk to him sometimes.

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I haven't heard from you in three weeks ( Read more... )

The cage gets a little bigger, that's all, but the bars are still there, just like always.

I lied in my bed and wrote in notebooks I tried my best to hide from my mother. I told myself it would get better when I got a job, and a car, and a cellphone. I cried to the best songs with the door locked. I wore long sleeves to hide the cuts I made to keep myself from exploding. I told myself that I was an artist and that's why no one ( Read more... )