I was digging through old emails today when I came across Krissy's Good bye letter, circa may 2005. Before this we hadn't talked in months so this was the final good bye. Still to this day is.It's very odd reading it now, knowing how everything turned out in the end. kind of funny in a sick way I suppose. After all I led two girls to the alter out ( Read more... )

Umm hi out there in no one reads this land.... I am still alive. Someone was talking about homemade food and I dont think Ive had hommade food in 5 months or so... but yeah bitch and moan huh. Anyhow Im outs ttyl space cowboy

Im posting here for the simple fact that I know almost no one knows about my live journal. no one is subscribed, no one comments. and I'm really ok with that. this has always been a forum for my honesty. And now I'm honestly tired. Im tired of the women I meet and the women I try and date. I'm tired of getting turned down for assholes, Im tired of ( Read more... )

A man stands at the edge of a cliff looking off into the stars over the ocean. A blue and white Hawaiian shirt left open blows in the cool salty sea air, showing off the mans body. Covered in scars and a tattoo on his chest of the Cheshire cat, but all in all super fit. His hair messy and a dim lit cig trails smoke behind him. He squints his bright ( Read more... )

So ive had something on my mind for a while now. Ive been wondering why sex has been so dull lately. And Its been going on ever since I was with claire last. Sex with anna krissy kaity and claire was amazing. I remember it all very vividly. In my memories its like a film. Bright vivid colors, dramatic. But after the last time with claire, It was ( Read more... )

Its been a long while since I wrote any blogs, anywhere. Expecially on here. And I cant even get into my open diary. But I have a lot to get off my chest today, and this is the place where the fewest people will read it. Mostly because I cant talk about a lot of my problems in front of some folks, not that I dont trust them or anything. I just dont ( Read more... )

Sorry listening to a swing version of eye of the tiger at the moment. The title seemed to fit how things have been going. Not bad, just sort of meh. Sides Its better than dear penis, which is on right now.  As for life, Kung fu has been the biggest improvement, Im testing for my purple sash (third belt) here soon. This marks the first time Ive  ( Read more... )

Not so reluctantly really, I really dont mind so much. That being said things have been going decently well. Ive changed a lot in the last month or so. Hell sometimes I dont even recognize my recent thought processes. Its sort of strange when you do something and then think... did I really just do or say that? then you realize that you dont need ( Read more... )

I wrote you a note once.

I put it in a bottle, and threw it in the sea.

On it was everything about me.

How I tried hard to get your attention but ended up looking like a dunce.

I know it won't get to its intended destination.

I sat and watched it float away.

I watched it bob up and down

As it disappeared into a sunsets crown

I knew that no matter ( Read more... )

whats the word Im looking for? vebose maybe? I don't know. I feel like Im getting dumber for some reason, perhaps Im just realizing all the stuff I that I dont know. I constantly find myself grasping for words and trying to botch my way through a spell check episode. I've always known that i was a creative kid. I used to look at the stars and make ( Read more... )