I was in the audience tonight, and I couldn't help but feel nothing but pride. You all were so fantastic. I sat next to Jim and every time someone went up to sing, I'd squeeze his hand. When Justin got up there and sang, I think I squeezed his hand a million times. Every time we locked eyes I smiled at him. I cried a bit. He had told me he was ( Read more... )

I've been in New York since TRL. That was just so amazing. I loved just being there in Times Square in the middle of everything. I guess it's just in my nature ( Read more... )

I left the house this morning. I guess there will be less mess, less noise and less ryan. It's just been a great experience. I really don't regret anything. I'm never giving up on my dream ( Read more... )

I'm starting to think people forget I exist.

Surprise Surprise.

Me almost getting voted off of the show was one of the scariest things ever. When I stood on that stage I kept thinking to myself: I knew it. So this is how it's going to end. I wish I didn't have to go. When they said I was staying, nothing felt better ( Read more... )

So today is when the world decides who stays on American Idol. I can never sleep, and the makeup artists wind up having to cover the circles under my eyes. Justin never seems to worry about it really. I think his anxiety is over the fact two people are leaving, not that he might be leaving. He's a fan favorite. I'm just paranoid ( Read more... )

I'm Ryan Starr. I just wanted to get this first entry business out the way. Kelly and Justin peer pressured me here. Bastards.