Feeling blah tonight. Crappy weather...blegh.  Off to bed i guess...

So things have still had their ups and downs...next month we have been married for 6months. We had a big break through earlier this month...not quite and argument...but i got right down to it...some of the things i was still scared to tell him...like i am and always will be in love with this one man because i never got the chance to actually be ( Read more... )

Today was a good day...for us. We didnt fight and i actually felt happy being around him. However...my day was not good! Had an emergency vet visit so that freaked me out!! Now waiting for results!!

I feel like im suffocating!!! We havent gone one day without fighting!! :(

Soooo my husband has been home for 2days now...weve already been fighting.  He has done NOTHING but sit in his "smoke room" and smoke weed and play fucking video games.  So meanwhile  im sitting here feeling not important or that he could care less about spending time with me.  His mom is here as well and its just frustrating because i dont want to ( Read more... )

Im so fucking torn!! I cant just end my marriage without trying but i cant get the one man ive always loved out of my head   fuck!!!!!!!!!! If my husband and i werent married...we probably would have broke up awhile ago.  Im an idiot. 

I feel like right now... I have to do everything i can to save my marriage...i will try counseling because if we dont...and we divorce...i will feel like we didnt try hard enough.  But at the same time...i feel like im done.....im open to trying though....cant hurt right? Ugggh FML

My Marriage isn`t what I thought it would be... I had a good long discussion with a friend last night, and the bottom line...we both came to, I should get divorced ( Read more... )

I do have another livejournal, but i know people personally, and this way i can just write, noone knows who i am...i can vent and move on.

more to come...