last night i got drunk with hanna, and it was quitefun. i miss simon though.. he gets back from portugal tomorrow night. i don't know whether to go to dawn's party or not. i've got about an hour to decide. today i went to dani's, to act in her film for media studies or whatever. i'm a shitty actor though. i'm sure there were better people who ( Read more... )

HAPPY ST PATRICKS DAY!

drink your guiness and be happy. i hate choices. i hate them more when something's "right" but it's all wrong and not what you want. i probably usually make the wrong ones.

i'm in a lets-remember-last-summer mood. there was plenty of shit stuff that was boring i'm sure, but i'm seeing it all tinted sunny. i feel incredible right now though. those times when you feel like solid self power and hope and happiness and shtuff. i have a really bad cut on my finger that hurts ;_; BUT THEN! wow. idk. really, i didn't think i ( Read more... )

does she exist?

i hate it when you leave it for days. and i know you've been around but maybe you have nothing to say to me, or maybe i'm being obsessive. but it's your fault for things you've said. i'm getting too fond of you.
but i've stopped worrying about jon anyway. i felt weird for a while, avoiding him after our walk so that i wouldn't have to deal with it. ( Read more... )

whaaat a fucked weekend :D it was fun though. i got pissed on the coach and then we were in wales and i got arrested for being drunk and disorderly. and then for posession of cannabis. they told me i had a filthy mouth, no respect and a habit of interupting people. and i made paper aeroplanes in the cell and threw them about. hanna was sketched out ( Read more... )

this week has been a fucking nightmare and i don't even know why. the thought of waking up the next day makes me want to cry. it's all just so pointless and stupid. and i regret trying to get with anyone, in any kind of way when i knew i wanted to be single. now i don't know what to do. and this is why! having anyone elses feelings and lives ( Read more... )

nobody was about today. i met emma and walked up to t&j's house with her to get her weed, and then back down and still nobody there so i came home. i feel eternally tired. briefly talked to miranda on msn but it made me feel sad. why does *everything* have to be brilliant, or *everything* is lame as fuck. THERE'S NEVER ANY FUCKING BALANCE! although ( Read more... )

well i really fucked today up. i'll feel better tomorrow.. today has just been shit.

sudden craving to hear blink. this weekend's been pretty fun really. hanna and si came round on friday and we smoked some weeeed and i tried a line of coke for the first time. it wasn't alot and i doubt i'll get into it because i'm not keen on fucking my nose up. but it was nice. then at like.. 5am jon came round but si was there so he left. and it ( Read more... )