So I'm back from my New Zealand trip, and I have to say it was one of the coolest experiences of my life. I did so many things, met so many people, and saw so many beautiful places. New Zealand is an awesome country. I'm very glad I chose to travel there, as it was the perfect experience for my first travel. I learned a lot about traveling as well ( Read more... )

So I've been grinding a lot lately in result of a prop bet against matt. Who could get the most vpps on pokerstars for the rest of the month. I thought I was a big favorite, but I couldn't predict the downswing I was about to have. It seems like no matter what I do lately I lose. Even I i get in the money good I lose. It's really rough to handle ( Read more... )

I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping lately. I'm not sure exactly why, but emotionally I can imagine there are a few things in my head that I want to get out ( Read more... )

So I met a bunch of cool people yesterday. Matt met up with people he had traveled the world with last night and I ended up getting drunk with a bunch of them. It was a great night, but I didn't like a lot of how I acted and what I did. I find myself trying to impress people to make them like me, when in fact it blows up in my face often. I try and ( Read more... )

I've had this account for a long time now. I don't think I use it as much as I would like to, but when I do use it, I definitely feel it's because I need to get some things off my mind. First let's start off with the good: I've completed my BA in Philosophy (not sure if I wrote about that). I traveled to Vancouver Canada and lived there for 3 ( Read more... )

Lately I've felt like a vice has been closing on me. For some reason, I feel very stressed quite often. A lot of this stress comes from myself, however some of the stresses are external. I feel like I have the perfect idea of my life, but I'm still not even close to living it. I'd like a small studio/loft apartment in a city that I love. The ( Read more... )

So I've waited long enough to bring up what happened with my Cousin to family members. I was wronged, and I've been silent about it for too long. It's why I'm not close with any blood-family on my Dad's side, and it's why most people rarely hear about my direct family. My Mom's side of the family is great, but they are fairly distant and I don't ( Read more... )

Leaving for Vancouver in 3 days. I haven't accomplished everything I wanted to accomplish before I left, which makes me feel stupid and lazy. I did get some things done, which was nice, but still... I really have a lot of responsibility to acquire. I keep telling myself once I have my own place and am settled down somewhere it will be easier, but I ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here in Croton and feel a certain type of anxiety. It feels like I'm stuck in mud temporarily. I know where I want to be, and where I want to go, but I have a lot of worries. It's been awhile since I had something to lose. I want to start a life on my own, but I'm also afraid of losing this opportunity by losing the money. I've seen how ( Read more... )

I feel like I've reached a very important crossroads in my life. Funny enough 2 months ago I would have told you that I had no idea where I was going, and whether or not I would even have enough money to go there, and now I can go anywhere. That in lies the problem. If you could go anywhere and do anything what would you do? It's a little ( Read more... )