I feel like the only time I write in this thing is to rant. Well here goes ( Read more... )

Wow- I just went from a good mood to a bad one in about 4 seconds ( Read more... )

It's no secret that one of my best friends and I haven't been too close recently, things have been different.

We haven't been close since early November. He started getting mad at me for stupid things (I.E. Being at  his house without telling him I'd be there... HELLO my brother lives there too!?). He started not talking to me for a week or so at a ( Read more... )

Now, anyone that has ever met me... EVER, even for 3 seconds, know's I'm emotional. It's just a known fact.

So it shouldn't have surprised anyone that I had a complete meltdown on sunday. When I say complete meltdown, I mean I was so completely nuts that I started crying because my sleeping bag came undone.  I also cried because of the bus debacle ( Read more... )

A few cruise pictures.
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Just returned from a cruise in the Carribean. It was super hot. And super fun. Between being id'd because I don't look 18, and watching KK (who's 17) NEVER get ID'd, I felt pretty young. Just because she is about 10 inches taller than me and looks at least 23, she got all the attention. It pissed me off, but still, a good 10 days. Surprise of all ( Read more... )

This is the strangest thing for me. I (finally) am content. I haven't cried myself to sleep for a seriously long time, I'm happy at school, things are just looking up.

But at the same time a whole lot of my friends are going through difficult times.

The same friends that were there EVERY time I needed them. 
The same friends who listened to me cry ( Read more... )

I'm not kidding when I say, the past four hours were actually the most needed ones in a long time.

Leah and Melissa and I roadtripped up to CSS for a few hours, to see the USY children. It was great.

I got to see the loves of my life that I haven't seen since FOREVER.

Why does it feel like pure happiness every time I see them.

They are my safe/happy ( Read more... )

I hate hypocrites.
More than anything. 
You can't get mad at someone for doing something, then turn around, do it yourself, and then say "well this is different."

different my ass

I'm not sure what's going on in my head right now. I'm really confused. So many things floating around in my brain. Memories, emotions. I replay conversations in my head. I visualize things that have happened. I wonder, in every single situation, what did I do wrong? I know it has to be my fault. I think about things I should have done differently ( Read more... )