So my summer is coming to an end...and I've come to realize something... it seems like everytime I make big plans and think that I'm going to get a lot accomplished I get nothing done. I feel like I spend my whole life working and just spin my wheels. At the end of the day all I've done is work and I haven't done anything for myself. I haven't ( Read more... )

Well its been almost a year since I used livejournal. I know that none of my friends read this anymore so I can write whatever I want. I'm currently sitting at work bored out of my skull just waiting for 3am to roll around so that I can go to sleep. I'm tired and life is stressful at the moment. I look back on my last set of entries and think ( Read more... )

It's stupid to try to convince yourself that your fine when your really not. I've tried to convince myself for over a month now that I don't care that Jason walked out of my life. I've gone through every emotion there is. I've said that I hate guys, that they all leave, that I never want to love again...BUT none of it makes me feel better. ( Read more... )

So I'm laying here in bed thinking to myself. Everyone keeps telling me how great everything is going to be once I fall in love again...but I don't want that. I don't want to fall in love again cause I'm scared. I fell in love and I loved with my whole heart and soul and it didn't work. What if I fall in love again and the next guy leaves me. ( Read more... )

If one more person askes me about Jason, how my boyfriend is, or how my guy situation is I'm going to break down. Its been hard enough on me having him not speaking to me, but now since I'm starting to get in touch with people from school they are starting to ask me about him and I can't handle it. Yesterday I had 2 or 3 people ask me about him ( Read more... )

Well today has been good...

I went on an adventure with Mathew and Danny...I got excited about how pretty it is here. I got all excited and thought wouldn't it be great to show Jason this and then I remember that he is gone from my life, but I didn't get sad this time I thought it would be great to share it with someone else.

Well yesterday was really not my day. I kinda sorta tripped and twisted my ankle and man did it hurt and well it still does. The worst part of this for me though is that I did it when I wasn't doing anything that I shouldn't have been ( Read more... )

So here's the deal my summer is almost over. I have accomplished nothing that I had hoped to. I've made several sets of plans and they have all completely fallen through. The worst part is that I had hoped to be over Jason by the end of my summer. It's been almost a month and I still feel almost exactly the same as when I left Cali, the only ( Read more... )

So here are my new goals for life ( Read more... )

So here's a lil helpful hint for everyone...Don't lick the electric cord that goes to a laptop while its plugged into an outlet to see if its working. It hurts like you wouldn't believe.