Things are going to be weird no matter what happens ( Read more... )

Im never going to be okay ( Read more... )

Is this really how people see me?

As a doormat? A convienience? Its like What I feel doesnt matter.
Ive been shit on by everyone Ive given my heart to. I want to be open to get to know people again, to love again.

I cant. I dont trust anyone.

I'm soo hurt and I dont know what to do anymore. I'm giving up.

So.
what to tell the therapist today?

Lets just hope that I get to go home. If you dont hear from me after 3pm today, that means he sent me someplace.
I've come to the conclusion I am a danger to myself, I'm going back to old habits.  Im no good for anyone, even myself.

NEVER look at old LJ posts.

They make me feel like shit.

I cant  trust a living soul. Not even my family. Im hurt beyond all words.

I'm trying really hard to figure out what my heart is telling me ( Read more... )

I couldnt tell you how much life is frustrating me ( Read more... )

I'm not myself anymore.

I'm someone else and I dont like her.

I dont like her at all.

Should I post on this more often?

I dont think its a good idea.

My minds been really dark lately.