The Month of May, Two Years Prior

The month of May, two years prior

Feels like pain and red hot fire

Like the fiery headaches I had from crying

I just could not admit he was dying

The month of May, just two years before

Smells like a hospital room with a sterile tile floor

With machines pumping like monsters in the night

Hospital bed and a ( Read more... )

here's something i thought of on the way home, for no particular reason.

You shrug and say, “Oh well”

Closing in on hell

You act as if you don’t care

Assuming a vacant stare

Inside you’re breaking

Can’t believe that you’re taking

Another disappointment

You hate disappointment

On the outside no one would know

How, inside, the salty tears flow

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FANTASTIC time friday. all there is to say. (not really, but all i have time for)

Niagara Falls tomorrow. while you are all stuck here stressing about prom. have fun kids, i know i will(!!) (exclamation points added for johnathan's benefit since he is reading over my shoulder) :)

have you ever had a bad day without being able to pinpoint the cause of it?

well it's been one of those days, when little things just set me off, and while i'm finally making my quarter mile trek up the driveway after school, i struggle to come up with reasons for waking up.  today i came up with 1: johnathan.

school is absolutely worthless, but ( Read more... )

lately i've been contemplating just how much things have changed since the beginning of the school year, and how fast this year has gone.  it's almost frightening to realize we have less than 25 days of school left (i dont know the exact count, which is quite unusual-generally i start the countdown on the dry erase board in my room at 30 days to go ( Read more... )

Something behind

The door of unknown

Of things and events

I’ve not yet been shown

The door is shut

Locked with a key

You stand there and wait

You wait with me

You’re holding my hand

Tight in your own

As we wait before

The door of unknown

Nerves make me shake

But you hold my hand steady

I can’t believe the time

The moments that have passed ( Read more... )

Recently, all anyone can speak of is Prom.  I have spent many moments in the past weeks withstanding conversations concerning all the drama that is encompassed by this seemingly all-important dance.  I, however, was not a part of this drama, as I decided awhile ago that John and I could find something much cooler to do than a silly dance that ( Read more... )

dear diary,
sometimes writing things out to you makes me feel better or think clearer.  i like to talk to you.  you don't have an opinion.  you accept my thoughts and feelings open-mindedly.  you never turn away.  you don't talk back or argue.  you give me the release that i need so badly sometimes, and i dont owe you anything in return.

but yet you ( Read more... )

today was one of those days that i woke up with a smile on my face and it lasted all day.  Amazing day, for no reason other than the simple fact that i am learning to love life.  wonderful.  i hope all of you had as good of a day as i did! :o)

anyways, john & i have developed other plans instead of going to prom.  so far, 2 parents down, one to go ( Read more... )