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i realized that i have not really written a real update all summer...just sporadic ramblings that most likely do not make sense. so instead of that, i'll give you a brief overview of my summer thus far ( Read more... )

hello all.
my calendar in my room is still on july and is going to stay that way, because i refuse to believe that it is august.

i have, however, come to terms with the fact that i will indeed be readying myself to leave for college next year at this time.  this is a fact that i have avoided for a long time...however, after johnathan & i watched "a ( Read more... )

i had a dream last night that frustrated me...only because it was all too real, and it made me remember things i'd rather get away from...made me remember why i wish this summer could last forever.

but enough on that.

my summer is going quite well, i hope all of you can say the same.  i dont really feel like writing much, though i could.  but anyways ( Read more... )

i am happy to say ....just that.  i am happy.  happiest i've been in a while, i think.  i am content with just about everything. :)

i returned today from camping with john's family.  we left sunday and went to a camp in a town called Brookville (about 20mins from DuBois) it was lots and lots of fun, even when it shouldnt have been---even when ( Read more... )

things im thinking right now:
1. i currently love my ancient celine dion CD that i resurrected the other day.
2.  yesterday was the first day in...at least 3 weeks that i did not see johnathan.   the pathetic & scary part? i missed him.
3.  im glad that i finally found a boy that makes me happy.  for those of you who havent, be patient.  the one you ( Read more... )

school ended without the normal dwindling and winding down... without the feeling of school ending...without that anticipation...almost without notice.   maybe that's because i didnt go today and am not going tomorrow, so i wont experience the "last day".  but thats okay- i can make much better use of myself here at home, where, though we do not ( Read more... )

another WIP (Work In Progress)

A yellow sign warns

Of a stop up ahead

A new intersection

I haven’t crossed yet

My foot years to brake

But I keep it on the gas

If I slow down here

I’m sure to be passed

Cars behind me and in front

I hate being in between all these cars

I try to keep their pace

As we try to reach the turn where our futures are

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i feel like doing a cartwheel, but fear i will be tripped.

a smile approaches my face, but i hide it before it is confiscated.

the end of the year is approaching. it's coming too fast yet not quickly enough.

just live and let live. isnt that what they say? i wish everyone could take that advice.

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When the sun rises on another day

I am still me

My heart’s still beating, lungs still breathing

My eyes can still see.

The sun might shine on me a little differently

At least in your eyes

I might have changed, things might be strange

But the sun is still in the sky

The shadow cast from me

Might follow a little more closely

Cautiously watching ( Read more... )