So, since life generally treats me pretty crappy, here we go again: my OOI (object of interest) and I are not together for now... this past weekend was so awesome I can't even describe it; we went shopping on Saturday, cuddled all evening. At one point in time, he looked up at me and said, "You look awfully happy," to which I replied, "Why wouldn' ( Read more... )

The unthinkable has happened: I've gotten what I wanted... the loser girl (that being myself) has for once, "gotten the guy." *meep!* The aforementioned friend who didn't know what he wanted has decided what he wants, and as luck would have it, that would be me! This all kind of came to be on Friday night, and here it is Sunday, and I'm still in ( Read more... )

I should preface this entry by saying that am not psychotic; doing things like keeping this journal, writing stupid poetry, and listening to angry music actually allow me to vent my feelings and keep me from doing the psycho things I'm sure everybody thinks about doing every now and then. That said, here we go... I am so fucking pissed off at the ( Read more... )

So I had a really really bad week last week, and as a result, I decided to go out drinking with some friends from work, including the guy I'm interested in. And another friend decided to set him up with some chick (which really pissed me off, because this friend knows I'm interested in said guy) who (as he put it) "scared" him, but he was too nice ( Read more... )

Right now I've got mixed feelings about the past... that's because I've talked to two people from my past in the last week; I had mostly good memories with one, and mixed from the other. I'll start out with the "bad" one, so I can end on a good note. I was sitting at home Saturday night waiting for one of my friends to pick me up when I heard the ( Read more... )

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Okay, so how ridiculous is it for me to like a guy and just sit here and stew over it? How ridiculous is it that he knows how I feel and fails to respond and I still just sit here? ...there's the answer... He knows how I feel and fails to respond. And here I am, like a puppy, just sitting here waiting to be petted (and I don't mean that in a ( Read more... )

So I've given my life a few days to settle, and things are looking cloudier than ever, pretty much. Yesterday, I had a pretty crappy day... things went very... CONFUSEDLY... with a guy friend of mine. I'm not sure if we're friends, or more than friends... and if we're more than friends, I'm not sure how much more. But anyhow, he did something ( Read more... )

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