I've just gone through some kind of extremely intense period. I don't even remember how long I was in it, as there was lots of time dilation, but I'm pretty sure it's been at least a week. I did an incredible amount of deep breathing and attempted to open my heart chakra. It's difficult to say whether or not I accomplished anything, because I ( Read more... )

I think the 12th house might be deeply misunderstood. Associated with tragic circumstance and "self-undoing", it's often made out to be some kind of karmic vortex. But I've had an insight about it -- It's a microcosm of the ego paradigm that characterizes the human condition. Recently I was talking to my NLP therapist, and I said something to ( Read more... )

How far off the deep end have I gone exactly? What do I truly feel in my heart? Even if I discover that, how can I find the compassion to forgive myself for feeling it? Is it really true that spiritual growth occurs through worldly experience? How do I detach from my mental fixation? What would I be like if I just learned to be myself? How do ( Read more... )

Ah, the lord shalt haveth thine bounty ( Read more... )

I defy you ( Read more... )

The tattered blinders, writhing with ecstasy ( Read more... )

I feel as if my head will float away ( Read more... )

I decided last summer that I am not spiritually evolved enough to practice astrology. Basically it became apparent to me that my tendency to fixate on particular and often narrow perspectives as well as to project my conceptual framework/s onto my moment-to-moment experiences was potentially highly dangerous. The prospect of living a life fully ( Read more... )

This is just a test to see if I can write anything that's heartfelt. Updates (for no one): Deterioration continues. I feel a greater sense of separation towards all others than ever before. My obsession with clinging to the fragments of my mind is the driving force behind the deterioration, I think. "What you resist, you create" as the New Age ( Read more... )

Lately I've felt like I'm immersed in a very stagnant, inert type of energy. According to a clairvoyant I saw, this is actually an overabundance of energy, but sometimes overabundance feels like lack. I keep trying to exert my willpower, which has always been difficult for me, but my inner conflict concerning the nature of the spiritual path (and ( Read more... )