new journal: _retrogression
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it's amazing to me how someone can spit in your face or you know, sue your family
and when you forgive them they rear back and spit in the same spot.
thanks dude, you have restored my faith in humanity. ferreal.

on a lighter note i have things to look forward to and i'm happy about it.

i love that i got to start the new year with my favorite people in the world. and ended the night at 7am while my parents made lauren, matty, and i grill cheeses. mmmm.
and i have sweet hick on my neck from mat. i love it. mmmm.

<3

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FUCKING TOUGH


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i'm so excited right now, i can't even explain. i've finally made a decision about my first two tattoos and if i talked to you about them at all, you know how much thought i've put into them. they mean so much to me. i just found and fell in love with a design for my big one and decided on the placement and ink of my small one. if i want you to ( Read more... )

i'm not sure i know how to be happy. it's so natural for me to be unhappy. i wish i knew why. i wish i could change.
i wish i knew what i wanted. i wish i could just be that girl laughing and cracking jokes that all my friends know.
i wish i was that way when the door is closed and no ones watching. but i'm not. and i don't know how to fix it

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i had fun tonight. i don't know if im the minority on this one but i have the most fun with my friends when we're just sitting around talking.

i think i'm going to back to blonde. everyone i've said this to laughed at me. oh well.
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it's 6:30am and i have yet to sleep
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