this is the end of a chapter in my livejournal life. as melodramatic as that sounds i'm sure, i've used this journal since 2004 and i have to say i've grown a lot through the years. i am not the same person i was when i began this and i just feel like this is the perfect time to change and start over. i have a new blog, come find me ( Read more... )

Hi, my name is:
lauren

When I'm nervous:
i talk really quickly, panic, hyperventilate...depends on how nervous i am. usually i talk really quickly and blabber on about nothing.

By this time next year:
who knows where the hell i'll be or what i'll be doing

Last night I:
got tipsy off of classy wine and ( Read more... )

What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before? lived for myself. went through a really rough break up. worked in a high-quality french/mediterranean restaurant in the hamptons. worked the line.

Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
from 2006 for 2007:
get my gpa up- did it
- get a really good ( Read more... )

1. The phone rings; who do you want it to be?
i don't know, i hate talking on the phone. i'm hoping it's a text message.

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
no, i'm lazy

3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
depends how drunk i am and if i like what they're saying

4. Do you take compliments well?
i ( Read more... )

this christmas i have decided that i am going to give myself the gift of forgiveness. i've been holding onto a lot in recent years. i, for whatever reason, find validation in the idea that most people are inherently assholes that will no doubt a. fuck me over and/or b. do "wrong" to me in some way. yes, it always seems to happen, but what if it's ( Read more... )

1. longest relationship?
about 4 years

2. Shortest relationship:
about 4 years

3. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you they love you?
one

4. Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were/are bf/gf with?
yes

5. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
yeah

6. Have ( Read more... )

so i've finally hit the six months mark. or really it will be in four days. six months ago ryan and i broke up. six months is a long fucking time, let me tell you. to think six months back that in six months i'd be where i am now, i don't know if i'd believe you. ryan was my everything and thanks  to a heaping scoop of co-dependency and mental ( Read more... )

i'm having a how the hell did i get here moment. i have these every so often but usually i try to ignore it all because it gets me endlessly confused, frustrated/aggravated, and feeling hopeless ( Read more... )

Respond to this and I will ( Read more... )

this is my list i made in qualities i would like to find in a guy, my next boyfriend- or really should i say unattainable, unreal dream guy. it really occured when i was listening to john mayer's i'm gonna find another you on repeat. figured i might share it since i'm waiting for my laundry. see if anyone has anything to add to it in their own ( Read more... )