can you even believe that it's been over a year since i've written a single thing on livejournal? i guess i got back into journaling in notebooks again. hand-writing everything gives you time to think it out, to realize that just because it is thought it is not necessarily true or worth believing. i realized that i was starting to type some shit on ( Read more... )

i was lying in my bed with my headphones in, when i looked at the pictures on my wall and noticed that i still have the polaroid of me with the "friend" who molested me. i must not look at those pictures very often, because i'm not sure why i hadn't taken that one down and burned it yet. it's been four months ( Read more... )

things are so different than i thought they would be. i think things are good. the vagina memoirs, that came and went. i think that was one of the most beautiful experiences of my life. i know i'm corny, but i'm okay with that. i'm feeling a little more like myself. there are big changes coming, big big changes. naomi is graduating and moving back ( Read more... )

i got to stand up in front of 80 people and talk about why i love being fat. i think this was probably one of the single most empowering moments of my whole life, honestly ( Read more... )

it was beautiful while it lasted, but love isn't enough to fix things anymore.

i'm pretty sure that i wish i could be dani's bff but i don't think that would be cool, she's like my boss. i found her livejournal on "accident" today and she is so cute for having a livejournal AND being in the fatshionista lj comm. i am pretty positive that this makes my life, actually. other fatties who love fat in bellingham? yes please ( Read more... )

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has it really been that long since i've updated this? i think i've been so distracted. or, for a while i was distracted, and then after that i was at least attempting to distract myself. i actually haven't been up to much lately. i mean, when i look at my planner (and i am using a planner!), i've clearly been up to things. but it doesn't actually ( Read more... )

i don't know. this is really wonderful. really beautiful. so beautiful that i wouldn't even think of compromising it despite the snowball effect. i don't feel like this relationship is anything to apologize for, but sometimes i wish it had better timing. also, i wonder if i'm gay. that wouldn't be so bad. i certainly don't feel straight these days ( Read more... )

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