14 more days

While i was packing this morning i had a random thought of how there is part of me that shall be sad to leave my apartment. But a bigger part of me is glad to be going. I can get out of here where everything is still raw. I want to be able to breath again. I can't breath here. Its almost as if everything is crushing me. At this point i don't care ( Read more... )

Minnesota's starting to sound better and better.. I wonder if i could get everything done by the 15th?

I should be more worried about moving but i'm not. Now its just where and when and the how. I'm still not sure if i should go to bonnie lake or minnesta or somewhere else. But the where determines the when, by the end of the month or in a few months or even a year for now. Then theres the how. Should I just leave? Do i drive or fly? How much money ( Read more... )

Part of my dream last night was... Just getting in a car and driving. Pack what i need and just leave one day. It was an interesting dream...

Hmmm... The offers still there to move to Minnesota, all i have to do is get there before october 1... I have a month. This is going to require alot of thought.

They had tv's, game systems and just about everything anyone could want. But while i was there i seemed to remember that the person i was talking to took something from me and i guess i was there to get it back. Then it seemed like i was going to go somewhere with them because the dad asked someone to go get the car. And for some reason i was going ( Read more... )

Yet another weird dream. I was unloading a truck.. Like it was a produce truck but it wasn't at walmart. But what was wierd was when the pallet tipped over and we where cleaning up what seemed like produce. Bugs and spiders where everywhere. But the people that i was helping said the where poisonus. Then i was at a place kinda like one of the ( Read more... )

I hate waking up with the paniced feeling. The dream i had last night/this morning wasn't that bad. It was odd but i felt like i was up against the grim reaper. Maybe it was from being so stressed out yesterday. I've been dreaming about rivers alot. Thats the one thing thats been in almost all the dreams i remember. I wonder if thats because i've ( Read more... )

I should start writing more but my thoughts are so confusing. I'm still having the weird dreams.