If intimate is something I want too occasionally,
Is there a punishment for that? Or is it simple economics?
Does Relationship cost too much to save for Sunday Best,
Are we who crave connection rare as Sabbath-day
Denied this avenue of sacred?
Have only this choice: pretense or isolation?Can I touch you when I want to touch you ( Read more... )

My last post? That was the hardest word to include. "Lonely ( Read more... )

Today is my birthday ( Read more... )

Some of you may know that this LJ blog began as an exercise during a year in which I was dedicated to Air. I wanted to explore the discipline of daily writing, and skillful speech. The latter of which means that this blog has almost always been entirely public. I wanted to push myself to write honestly and openly about what was really going on with ( Read more... )

Yes. Really ( Read more... )

So. I'm not dead ( Read more... )

Things are getting worse. No chance now of this being amicable. One of the reasons I created this blog was to practice communicating in a way that could be absolutely honest and still absolutely public. What can I say, now, with integrity, in this very public forum ( Read more... )

A lot of you flister-folk live in Austin, it seems ( Read more... )

...thank you thank you thank you to those who have expressed support, here and elsewhere.

Yesterday was brutal. So far, this morning, the emotional waters are at least a little calmer. Imagine it will all remain unpredictable and intermittently awful for some time. Knowing ya'll are out there, thinking of me kindly, helps with the awful. It really

I met John 18 years ago today ( Read more... )