Comments | raenja: Deep Thoughts

raenja

Deep Thoughts

Oct 10, 2006 19:05

I was sitting at work today and I realized I was unhappy ( Read more... )

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lufialillystorm October 11 2006, 16:05:57 UTC

Remember what my boss said? After he had been depressed for 30 years of his life he felt like it was the only way to feel ( ... )

raenja October 12 2006, 16:53:19 UTC

Yes i fully recall those words well, they flit through my mind far more often than i want ( ... )

lufialillystorm October 12 2006, 17:41:49 UTC

So if you are mean to me it is because you think I deserve it?

hm, define 'friendship' in your journal. I will do the same in mine.

raenja October 12 2006, 18:13:57 UTC

That was my musing; its a possibilty that i subconciously dont gaurd my thoughts and words when i speak to those who have done things that have hurt/upset me and thus deserve some amount of scorn or negative feelings returned? I do not think you deserve my being mean and in no way shape or form do i try to be mean to you. Sometimes things i say to you; while not trying to be mean come out as mean because i do not fel as though i should gaurd what i say towards you and be less than honest......maybe i speak freely around those i sometimes sound mean towards because i have to reason to be less than honest with them; because i have no reason to speak with deciet or falsehoods hidden.... and maybe those to whom i speak kindly with gentleness i speak towards merit that form of speech because of thier speech? Maybe i speak with honesty with those who speak so honestly with me; and gently with those who speak gently....i will ponder that for today ( ... )