Nothing much new, oh yeah, except for some random boring shit that doesn't matter because i'm just some fucking loser who can't find a fucking job or anything for that matter. I can't even find myself in all this mess. I just don't care anymore, really, I don't. I've been escaping again, though not through alcohol. Not going to get into it right ( Read more... )

To clear up some things that weren't said. Yes I am hung up on Lexi, but I am also just missing that sort of interaction with another human being. I mean, of course I would be hung up on her, I thought something was going to happen, and nothing did. That would make any one of you said right ( Read more... )

So, i'm writing this to you drunk, from my room, and without spelling errors, I hope ( Read more... )

So, all this shit has been getting to me, and now that i'm drunk, it's even worse ( Read more... )

So, things didn't get much better with Kayla and I. I thought they would, but it just didn't. I've come to terms with it even further, and i'm ready to move on, I just wish she would understand. It's a long confusing story, that of which I don't want to get into for the millionth time. Kayla and I are not together anymore, and I don't see us ( Read more... )

Just got back from the ER, Alan went with me, which rocks, he's a really good friend. But i've got some bad news. The doctor uhm . . . . well, he stuck it in my bum . . . twice . . . I got a shot of Penicilan(sp?) and some other shit that hurt like hell. I've also been told to continue to take the medicine I have . . . I have strep, and since I was ( Read more... )

I've been horribly sick lately, and it's driving me fucking nuts. My throat has been swollen for almost a week and a half, and i've gotten food poisoning twice. The world is against me getting siht done, it really is. I still feel like i'm going to puke, and i've been pretty much alone the past two nights. Eating Chipotle today was a bad idea ( Read more... )

Kayla and I are back together, which is great. I really missed her, i'm just hoping this time will be a bit different. This also means i'm staying in the area now. I would still like to get out of Fairborn, which I may still, but it wouldn't be to SC or something, probably just to a different city close by. Had to push back the date for my GED ( Read more... )

My mind is so out of whack right now. It's hard for me to even type this. Lately i've been wanting to just do nothing. Just sit back, and think. I haven't been able to do that in a long time. I'm thinking of finding somewhere I can park my car and just lay on the hood or something. Somewhere no one will bother me. I wish there was a decent park I ( Read more... )

My last post was utterly destroyed. All of those things I said I was doing, I am still doing. I've been dicked around by the GED people quite a bit, as well as with the bank. This last week and a half has been hell. So far, i've been in a car crash in someone elses car. Kayla and I broke up. My stepsister (who I live with) got into a car accident, ( Read more... )