So another year has come to a close and a new one has begun. 2005 was a horrible year for me and 2006 doesn't look like it's going to be much better. I've been reviewing my life and my outlooks on certain aspects and my views are starting to change ( Read more... )

My Christmas was so absolutely horrible. Nothing went right. I didn't get to see my family and/or sleep in my bed Christmas night. Instead I was forced to go to my mom's boyfriend's family's house for Christmas. I ended up sleeping on his couch that night. Fun stuff... I can't believe I missed the thing with Jessie and Bobby, I was so depressed ( Read more... )

It's been a while since I updated and believe me a lot has happened! Mom's in trouble with the cops again. Third DUI in three years and her second one this year. What a role model? I'm completely on the edge of emotionally breaking down and my body seriously can't take it anymore. I eat but can't seem to have an appetite, I put on a smile and ( Read more... )

So everything was messed up this week. Phil doesn't want to talk to me and I didn't even do anything and he even said so, so FUCK IT! To make things even better, I came home and my mom is completely drunk and doing her usual "I'm such a horrible person, why do you hate me... you're such a selfish bitch" little act along with the usual histerical ( Read more... )

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT ( Read more... )

So everything is completely messed up. Friday I was so stupid that I drank without having any food in my stomach and got really, really sick. I didn't even drink that much. So I got caught along with everyone else who was involved because I had to be carried into Mel's house. We wouldn't have been caught if it wasn't for me and I feel really, ( Read more... )

Well things seem to have been worked out. Thank God for that because it was all really more than I could take at the moment. This week went by kinda fast and kinda slow at the same time. No school today and unfortunately I have to go back tomorrow, oh well. Not much happened this weekend it was mainly rest for me even though it feels like I didn't ( Read more... )

Well things have been really shitty lately and the most surprising part is they have absolutely nothing to do with my mother. I'm feeling, neglected would be the wrong word, abused would be the correct term! How can you make me feel like the most important thing in the world one minute and act like you want nothing to do with me the next? And the ( Read more... )

I don't know why but I have been really sad lately and I can't figure out why. I hate this so very much. I would rather have something to be sad about but I don't and it makes me feel like a retard. I want to cry so bad but I can't. It will probably make me feel better but I hate crying. I feel so weak and tired and I just want to be alone but at ( Read more... )

Yesterday was so amazingly perfect. Trentin's party was pretty good for what it was. He is getting so big and cute :D He's walking and everything now. Steven got there just before I left but it was really good to see him. I was nominated against my will as the designated driver, lol, but I didn't mind. My aunt has a huge truck and I was a little ( Read more... )