Well things seemed to have been goin good, but now I see the real picture. I know that I can never truely be happy. In knowing this I know that some things never really change, they only mutate, changing only their outer appearance, but staying the same on the inside, An that this one in particular haunts me.... Has haunted me for years ( Read more... )

well my life seems to have taken a turn fer something worse then i originally thought..... this is pothetic, i think that i might get a guy, but turns out he's a skitso, really.... an one side loves me, the other hates me.... so ya... its weird, an i knew it wasn gonna work, so i had to toss him.... it sounds harsh... but not really considering the ( Read more... )

and again.... i write for no reason..... no one reads.... thay have no time to read or bother with this crap cuz its summer..... they have jobs, places to go, things to do, things that are way more important than this stupid puter journal thing.....oh well.... i guess i'm jus gonna have to live with it.... i can't get a job.... no transport.... ( Read more... )

well well.... today was jus not my day i guess... which brings me here.... no one reads me journal anyways, so ya.... all i gots to say is now i'm updatein it.... an no ones gonna know till.... ummmm i dunno if they'll ever know, but thats ok.... i'm jus blending into the background again... where i belong..... should have known my time in the spot ( Read more... )

well.... i think its been a while.... nothing new... i don think anyways..... well umm.... oh ya.... i've been unusually hyper an bouncy for the past week or 2..... an i think is cuz i've been eating natural sugar.... ku stuff eh? lol an umm.... wait...dermit.... i fergot what i was gonna type.... wait... i jus got it back... lol now what was it ( Read more... )

well to put an end to another day.... i hate my dog,*whines* he ate all my pizza...;.; i think that maybe i could open up an say what i mean to someone.... but i doubt it, an suddenly i'm starting to think that my voice level is too high for human ears to hear, because it seems that no one can hear me at all, no matter how loud i talk..... but ( Read more... )

well, in light of some recient news (well not really new... i've known about it fer about a week or so now...)my journal entries will comsist of my days events more than on any peronal feelings about anyone in particular, this is mainly cuz certain a friend of mine can't keep her mouth shut, an told someone eles that i'd normally write about my pin ( Read more... )

well heres to another b-day.... ya rite... these things jus keep gettin worse every year... an days like today bring back those old suicidal memories.... i mean for a "surprise" i have to clean the house 3 times over, just so that my house looks clean for my realitives.... an they didn even come.... then when i get home from shcool today, i had to ( Read more... )

m'kay.... its been a while, an i really have nuthin to write about.... at least i don think..... oh well i'm jus writtin off the top of me head here.... so this could go on fer a couple a more sentences, or it could go on fer like a couple a paragraphs.... but who knows..... now when was the last time i wrote in this thing ( Read more... )

alright.... this is the second time i'm writting today, ya i'm that bored ( Read more... )