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There is a subtle emptiness within me. Small but visceral. It finds me in memory and often leads me here. For a reason I don't presume to understand. It is, in every sense, the feeling of sadness. I hear it in this song. And feel it in the steps I take, skirting puddles and the tones of grey. It is faint and yet debilitating. Punctuated by ( Read more... )

I found myself lying in bed. Staring at constellationss only I can see. Blades spinning in an iridescent light, like that of a helicopter. My eyes search for an image that does not show. Lost in time. And lost in feeling. Hiding in memory. They search and search. And glaze and close. The bottoms and tops of my teeth clench and pop. I find ( Read more... )

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ONETR1CKPONY: i don't want sushi, rene
r3mixed83: i hate you
ONETR1CKPONY: feelings mutual

This writing has become, more and more, incoherent. These words, not as defined as they once were. And here I sit. As entangled in them as I've ever been. I don't presume to understand the purpose of these entries. But for better or worse, I need them. I need them to feel a little more. To bleed, live, and die a little more. And yet, a part ( Read more... )

Sitting here. I'm listening to this song. And breathing in a new candle flame. It fills a vague emptiness within me. I'm finding comfort when perhaps I shouldn't. Not from these things. And the memories that linger with them. They broke my heart then as they still do now. They killed me then and they kill me now. This is more than what I ( Read more... )

Something curious has happened. It has left me with unfound words. Something that feels honest and genuine. It leaves me here ( Read more... )

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