We are on a break. I absolutely hate it.

We got into an intense fight, sort of. I basically didnt want to hear what he had to say and he was trying to make me understand his point of view, and wanted me to back up my beliefs with facts. We are completely different, and that is what is a big barrier between us. It sucks sometimes to care about people, and not wanting to hurt them but then ( Read more... )

This past week has actually been pretty good, I have had good luck on a lot of things, but the main point is: suicide girls. Do I do it or not? A friend told me that if there were any doubts that I should just not do it, cause I mean really, its internet porn basically and who knows where my naked ass would end up. But I also think it would be kind ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wish you told me more.
It feels like you lie to me a lot.
I don't ever know what is going on inside that head.

I have been gaining weight. I blame this all on Ryan. Seriously though! After he broke up with me I got really depressed and ate a lot, now I am fatter. I am not happy.

I have decided to get them pierced. Its going to hurt like hell.

We tried to play scrabble
We got distracted
He stopped us in the middle and said its not me
Its him
I make him happy
But he is stuck in a war between what he wants and who he wants to be
I don't think I am right for him
I don't want to leave him.

This month has been nothing but bad so far. Ladytron was sold out, I gained more weight, I got into an accident, I forgot to turn in a midterm and now I'm just waiting for my boyfriend to either break up with me or die. This month sucks soooo hardcore. I am nothing but unhappy.

all the time, and I shouldnt. I have only known him for two weeks, I shouldnt feel this strongly. He makes me happy, but pisses me off a lot. Yesterday he came to my house when I was not answering my phone. It was annoying. He left me flowers, I was mad at him. He wrote and drew all over a stupid card. It made me mad. I wasn't even home. I was ( Read more... )

Sometimes I like him so much it hurts ( Read more... )