i have come to realize that this journal is full of my life. life that i'd rather not think of. names i'd rather not read or remember.. so i have made a new journal for the rest of my while that will indeed be fresh and refilled with new memories, new people, and hopfully a new love.
this journal makes me sick to read

so..

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i'm babysitting and i miss my baby
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i didn't even get to see his mean ass for more than 5 mins today
and even tho he WAS being a meanie i still would have loved to see him longer

\\\carrie

so, today it is official.
SUCK ME.
i'm lovin' it

havn't slept yet a lot. i am somewhat pissed off because of the fact that last night i had 2 1/2 packs of cigarettes now i only have, in my possesion, 5 cigarettes. mad mad mad. umm tomorrow i am going to josh's grad. party for a little. than sunday is my family party..///money....lots of it. yess. ( Read more... )

yesterday was my birthday. it was unbelievably awesome. one of a kind

i am beyond tired. i didn't stop doing my thing until 8 this morning, than i woke up jamies drunk ASS up by kicking her in the head for some random reason. the bitch was passed out on the floor, soaking in her own puke.  than she got on the couch with me at 9 and we got up at 11 ( Read more... )

birthday
birthday
birthday

happy birthday jamie and me.

i got a digital camera :o yay

i just keep hearing more and more and more shit about you
she wants to talk to me now..  fuck dude

i'm in a mood to where i want to hear a certain song and am gettin mad when i can't listen to it. umh.ghhhmg.grr. i am beyond frustrated in too many ways to count. one way is overpowering the others. hmmm 2 months... that's 2 months too long. = / but besides my sexual needs, i have been in, i guess what you would call, a very sad mood. possibly a ( Read more... )

No, no, no, no, don’t phunk with my heart

Girl, you had me, once you kissed me
My love for you is not iffy
I always want you with me
I'll play Bobby and you’ll play Whitney
If you smoke, I'll smoke too
That’s how much I'm in love with you
Crazy is what crazy do
Crazy in love, I'm a crazy fool

No, no, no, no, don’t phunk with my heart

am i stupid?.. nope. but i guess i was stupid for sticking around long enough to have this feelin of being let down and manipulated. this is one shitty ass feeling. it's sad as fuck to hear that i am all you can think about when you are fucking other people.. nope. how can i be content with wanting to be with one person but you can't be. it's not ( Read more... )

i suck at getting away with shit. i should just give up on having a life. it only lasts a week than i am back here, fuckin on lock down. whhhat the fuck ( Read more... )

you know you're in the boonies if at 4am you hear roosters.

kelly called me last night and wanted to chill so i said alrighhht. after we ditched her physco stalker boyfriend we headed out to i don't know where. we went to her friend matts house. chilled for an hour than went to another house, drank, and tried to learn how to make bottle caps fly by ( Read more... )